i_apologized smile its beautiful my ex girlfriend just came by - i'm such a sucker. she claims to be confused - i held her - like we used to and we kissed, like we used to. then...we talked - not like we used to, i asked her if she still felt anything for me "i think so" i apologized for still loving her - for putting her in that position. and that all this time she still had my heart - but that i didn't have hers. no response - that has to be it. just... get over it, i tell myself - if only it were that easy. i hate this. 031103 ... surrendering :hug: 031103 ... pipedream *leaves a jar of happy sparkles* it's gonna be putrid, but keep your chin up. it *will* be over, sooner or later. 031103 what's it to you? who go blather from