and_if_i_am_disapointed sab maybe that says more about me than them 070310 ... Lady Lightness projection, expectation, idealization 070310 ... pete there is good cause. the words 'what the fuck' float in my mind. much what i felt a week ago is back, but less extreme because i didn't end up walking home, i made the bus after being entirely ignored at the after party. at the end of the formal itself. what the fuck? i should judge the behaviour based on last week, but still it .. i don't know. it's a crush and i let her know it and she acts obliviously while drunk, seemingly playing on it while twisting it. about time it ends and i carry on. but still. what the fuck? 070311 what's it to you? who go blather from