i_want nom i wanna meet you i want to be your long forgotten friend i want to clean you when you are born i want to feed you soup when you are old and poor i want to fix your car i want to lend you my umbrella i want to give you an ice cream cone i wanna sew your pieces together i wanna be your librarian i would like to attend your Bar Mitzvah i want to pour your tea i want to sing you a song i wanna bump into you in the grocery store i could even love you i want to cut your hair i wanna see you smile i want to live in a prison with you i want to iron your clothes i want to be your muse i want to vote for your party i wanna read your story 031025 ... uow i want to love and feel love and feel loved and feel i want to live and feel alive and feel life and feel 040915 ... once again I want to take a walk down Kelly Drive in the spring time, with your hand in mine. I want to ride the bus all day with you, to the end of the line. I want to take you to the Love fountain and dance to music we can't hear. And at night when the sky is orange I want you to be near. I want to eat Pat's steaks in the summer and kiss the melting cheese from your lips. I want to buy exotic presents on South Street and when we get back to the apartment I want to fuck you in the lift. I want to live a life with bittersweet romance. And if life if dancing, it's with you I want to dance. 040915 ... silentbob i don't want to be john lennon or leonard cohen i just want to be my dad 040915 ... Syrope i want this to work. i guess the thing is...i don't want to change you. but i do want you to show me some sign of any sort of responsibility, some sort of maturity. i don't think you know how hard it is for me to do what i do all day, and to still make time for you. you treat it so nonchalantly, like eh i could come hang out with you but i could just sit here. i've been busting my ass all day and all of it was worth it cause i kept telling myself it'd be over soon and i could crawl into your arms. i want you to get frustrated with life and bring it to me. i want you to be consistent in the way you treat me. treat me like you do when i visit you and i'll leave you. leaving you isn't as scary as the extremes i see myself going to before i do. i don't ever want to hold anything like that over you. i don't ever want to say "if you don't keep me satisfied, i'll find someone who will." i don't want to start seeing other guys on an innocent-for-now basis to threaten us... treat me like you do when you come to see me and i'll be in love with you forever. it hurts that you'd rather stay at home than come see me, because i love who you are when you come to see me. but i don't take well to being ignored, to excuses that you make for not being able to do something with me turn out to be all lies...right before my eyes. it's getting ridiculous...the time, the effort, the money i put into you. it's hard to talk about things with us not going the way i'd hoped. i remember right after it happened, i tried to tell myself there's no way we'd ever be as good together as we were those few days. i wish i believed that. i want to stop lying to myself. 040918 ... Syrope cue regret 040918 ... Syrope once you say something out loud or put it in writing it becomes so real and there's something really scary about that 040918 ... skyburst i want to be here i want to be there i just don't know if i can 041114 ... nom) i want everything 050923 ... nom) i want too_much 050923 ... nom) i want nothing 050923 ... nom) i want it all 050923 ... nom i want to go home now 060209 ... nom i want to say hi 060723 ... nom i want to know how you are 060723 ... crOwl i feel like a cat pushing against a screen, trying to get outside. i feel like prometheus bound. 060723 ... nom i want always 061122 ... redness . 061123 ... nom i want to be completely ok 070327 ... nom i want to be kissed again i want to kiss him again 070414 ... cr0wl to see the new kitten. 101019 ... unhinged a life without worries 101019 ... PeeT to be less embarrassed by who I am but not aspire to be someone different. 120209 ... PeeT to be a dog. 120319 ... raze to fold myself up like a paper airplane and fly. 240419 what's it to you? who go blather from