lift
raze
there
are
eighty-six
thousand
and
four
hundred seconds
that
make
up
a
day
.
he
could
locate
one
within
three
hundredths
of
itself
using
his
thumb
.
he
almost
nailed
it
every
time
.
sometimes
he
even
lucked
into
landing
on
the
number
he
wanted
without
any
roughage.
monday
he
woke
up
feeling
like
a
bad
imitation
of
himself
.
not
empty
,
but
spent
.
"
why
say
anything
?"
he
thought
. "
why
do
anything
?
there's
no
point
.
no
one
cares
.
everyone
leaves
and
everything
dies
and
pretty
soon
i'll
be
dead
too
.
a
quarter
of
this
year
is
gone
already
,
and
i
haven't
even
had
a
chance
to
catch
my
breath
.
if
i'm
breathing
at
all
."
he
opened
a
window
.
he
opened
a
door
.
he
left
the
house
.
he
was
gone
for
half
an
hour
.
in
a
little
less
than
two
thousand
seconds
he
saw
an
alley
littered
with
leaves
that
led
to
an
uneven
patch
of
grass
.
he
saw
steel wool saturated
with
soap
sinking
into
someone's
front
lawn
.
he
saw
a
medley
of
birds
.
sparrows
and
robins
and
seagulls
sharing
space
.
one
flew
past
his
face
.
then
another
.
in
optimist
memorial
park
he
saw
two
tall
trees
with
broken
backs
.
no
human
hands
had
done
that
.
just
time
.
he
studied
a
hole
in
the
heart
of
a
beech
tree
.
he
watched
a
blue
-gray gnatcatcher
watching
him
.
he
listened
to
the
soft
music
it
made
.
he
found
an
empty
wrapper
of
halls
cough
drops
.
it
was
down
to
just
the
ha
.
it
laughed
at
him
every
time
he
looked
at
it
.
he
laughed
back
.
ha
.
he
found
a
forked
branch
almost
as
long
as
his
body
.
he
lifted
it
above
his
head
.
he
asked
to
be
led
to
water
or
buried
metal
or
some
piece
of
truth
deep
enough
to
drown
in
.
he
didn't
see
anything
that
wasn't
already
there
to
be
seen
.
it
was
beautiful
.
all
of
it
.
even
the
ugly
parts
.
he
would
blink
away
another
week
before
learning
he'd
been
holding
the
divining rod
the
wrong
way
.
he
was
pointing
it
at
himself
.
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