to_nr inception hello nr, it's you speaking to you, trying to get you back to being the you you want to be. please really try to listen if you want to succeed in your youness. signed, nr/me/you 220212 ... this one is always important and relevant you don't owe anyone anything. 220212 ... nr you are a grown woman who makes her own decisions and sets her own way. 220212 ... nr you should learn to practice gratitude more for the amazing people who have been there for you. you love them because they are caring people. you shouldn't feel like you owe them things, but rather do caring things for them if and when they need. which you do, because you care. 220212 ... tough_love_nr stop letting your fucking anxiety and catastrophizing habits override the rational nature that you KNOW you have! when anxiety is fighting with rational thought, let rational thought win. 220212 ... nr the perfectionist it's okay to fail. we all fail. we usually survive the failures. i know you have trouble believing this (thanks, childhood trauma), but deep down you know it's true. 220212 ... nr ha, this is like an nr_therapy_session. feel free to take any advice as needed, fellow lovely red folks. 220212 ... nr be understanding of yourself. trauma and grief are not easy (maybe impossible) to overcome, but try to remember that it is often these things that are causing how you feel. the worries may not be grounded in reality. 220212 ... nr put your worries in a container and lock it. 220212 ... nr if people want to be assholes because you made a mistake, they're the assholes. 220212 ... nr you're allowed to forget 220212 ... nr try to stop saying "what if?" 220212 ... nr will you actually listen to yourself? we'll see. 220212 ... past this all speaks to me too. 220212 ... nr accept that things are going well. learn to trust that. and learn to trust that you still have the mental and emotional capacity to handle it if things turn sour. 220212 ... nr if you got through that stuff, you know the stuff, you can get through most stuff. 220212 ... nr consider the risks you're about to take if you know the negative outcomes could be literally hazardous to your health. risks are fun, but recklessness is reckless. make sure you're comfortable with the risk you're taking. 220214 ... nr stop clenching your teeth! 220415 ... nr go to bed. (you won't, but it's worth a try.) 220523 ... nr go to bed EARLY for once in your life. never! maybe if you did, you'd be less tired and wouldn't talk to yourself on blather? come on, you'd still do that. 220725 ... nr when you're doing your catastrophizing thing, read what you said about what you say to yourself on "worry." 221115 ... nr you can't control everything, and you have no control over that, and that's just how it is and you can be okay with hit. 221229 ... nr with *that. no hitting, unless it's drums. 221229 ... nr if what you want doesn't coincide with what you can control, shift your focus to something that does. 221229 ... nr don't put people on pedestals 230130 ... nr go the fuck to bed. 240616 ... nr you were brave today, and you deserve some recognition for that. even if things don't turn out as expected, there are no regrets there. you're getting better at this. now go to bed and stop talking to yourself. 240617 ... nr trust your intuition and don't be afraid to call things out and ask questions. 240708 ... nr sometimes people are just bored, and just because you're charismatic doesn't mean you can't also just be convenient. 240708 ... nr stop overthinking. set boundaries and expectations. listen to the wise advice of friends who say to show them in your actions. 240804 ... nr a shot of vodka to kill any bacteria is not scientific and probably a placebo at best, but just let yourself have this one 241112 what's it to you? who go blather from