chemistry the eye it's all in the reactions. gravity pheromone covalent bond charged and excited flying free of the tedious shells in which they orbit fission reaction burning bright glow-in-the-dark perspiration conducts electricity nothing's shocking 010728 ... kyla "Within the bowels of these elements..." 010729 ... anonymouse my god i love this class...mwahaha fire... 010905 ... guitar_freak i like what i am AWAKE for i can't keep my eyes open at all give me 5, 10 minutes tops and i am out cold 011127 ... Praline Queen It's what ignites us, that burn that sparks when we breathe in rhythm, when our heat is combined into an energy all it's own. 011228 ... pilgrim The Lie That keeps us Searching For explainations About The Infinite And Incomprehensible Truth Life Is NOT Chemistry It Is Magic 011228 ... only smarties have the answer opposite to upside down to inverted and you have the answer 020809 ... amy adaptability it's emotionally gut wrenching to learn, theoretically, about a method i did a class paper on back in the day, and still to be doing it all again in theory. keeping myself self-literate and smart but not to trust me with producing a number for anyone's policy. why? to know what happened. and what didn't. and what i didn't want to think about, particularly. 130601 ... nr yes. this. it's incredibly palpable. i'm usually good at keeping off-limits people at an emotional distance, but this is proving much more difficult. i wonder what i would feel if i let myself. but i can't, and i'm not sure i want to. the timing is all wrong for everything. 130602 ... nr i'm making this sound more complicated in my head than it actually is. simply put, you are one of my favourite people, and i don't want to lose you. but being around you confuses me. 130602 ... epitome of incomprehensibility I don't think I'm in love with Gilbert after all, but we have chemistry. Okay, HE has chemistry. At least, he's teaching it fourteen (!) hours a week. That means that when we take the bus back from practice together, we talk about things that could kill us. ... Last time, he was talking about having to explain lab safety procedures to students. Including how the eye wash worked, in case someone got something toxic in their eyes. Then I shared a rhyme one of my dad's friends had told me: There was a little chemist But now he is no more Cause what he thought was H2O Was H2SO4 At first, Gilbert didn't hear me over the low roar of the bus. So I repeated it and added, "Because that's hydrochloric acid, I think." Gilbert: "Sulfuric acid - the S is for sulfur." Me, abashed: "Oh." ... Pick your poison: this evening he told me, cheerfully, how his colleague warned him she was doing something nearby with cyanide gas. It was under some "hood" and there was a cyanide detector, he said, so he was reassured. How cyanide can kill you if you breathe it in or ingest it: it messes with the mitochondria, the parts of cells that transmit energy, so "all your organs start failing...everything shuts down." My mind: That cannot be painless. Why do spies in movies have cyanide pills? Or am I mixing things up? What she thought was hydrochloric acid was sulfuric acid. She avoided them both; good. But cyanide gas specifically...rather morbid day to discuss it cheerfully: January 27, liberation of Auschwitz. But then, would it be morbid to talk about mustard gas on November 11, last day of World War 1? Both mark the end of a bad thing, not the beginning of it. Why do people want to kill each other so painfully, anyway? Not that it's nice to kill people, but wouldn't carbon monoxide be relatively painless? My voice: "Doesn't carbon monoxide do something different? Replaces oxygen or something?" Yes; blood cells, the ones carrying iron or something, absorb oxygen and discard carbon dioxide. But carbon monoxide binds to them even better than oxygen does, which is why it can replace the oxygen going to the blood, causing people to feel dizzy and eventually die if not enough oxygen gets to their brain. (This seems like a programming flaw, to code for "not carbon dioxide" rather than "oxygen only." I'm not playing god, just sending bug_reports.) Anyway, this is why proper ventilation is important. ... The friendzone needs proper ventilation. I don't mind it now: he IS a good person and I DO want to be friends with him...but maybe not in love. I think there's a maturity difference. The age_gap between his baby teeth and mine. In what way? One that I've noticed: he talks about his job and doesn't ask about mine. That shows some youthful self-absorption, if not selfishness exactly. He doesn't MEAN to just talk about himself. He also has ADHD: that's what he said, right? But his seems less disorderly than mine. And I was actually glad of his self-absorption. Right now I'd rather not have someone ask about my day-to-day life because it seems pathetic. Or does it? Today, I *did* want to tell Gilbert about the troubles posed by B. being in Iran - maybe just because it's a weird and therefore interesting situation to be in, an example of everything_is_connected. But we talked about chemistry instead. Everyone is a little selfish and everything_is_connected. By chemistry. Just not always THAT kind. 260127 what's it to you? who go blather from