what_is_going_on_here notme i just don't know what's going on have i died am i dead 040601 ... notme i'm really sad and i can't write why 040601 ... notme i try to distract myself but it doesn't work 040601 ... notme i wake up to darkness when there should be light 040601 ... notme everywhere i go there is silence 040601 ... notme i ruin everything 040601 ... notme i'm afraid of becoming a ghost i can't live here like this 040601 ... notme i can't even shutup 040601 ... notme i go through whole days without looking anyone in the eye if i can get away with it nothingisayisofanyinterest 040601 ... notme i think i'll paint myself with henna 040601 ... monee i need to stop freaking out 041217 ... monee i should stop blathering 041217 ... monee i need to get on with my life 041217 ... monee i need to stop freaking out 041217 what's it to you? who go blather from