pissed_off nocturnal yeah, that's me right now. NO ONE is here to talk to me, neither at home nor on blather. none of my friends are in town yet, so I have nothing to do but sit here like the blathering idiot that I am, apparently to myself because no one else is on to read this. might as well be talking to myself out loud. maybe I should go to sleep, but I can't, it's too early, so I'll just sit here doing this for no good reason until I get bored and tired. 010310 ... mikey hugs. hugs. hugs. your so silly! dont forget werent you late leaving? maybe they were expecting you and got tired of waiting? i dunno. 010310 ... nocturnal no, they knew. they kept calling me on my cell phone to find out where I was, how much longer till I'd be home blah blah blah. well, I guess it's okay really, I mean, Anne's coming in tomorrow so I'll definitely go out with her somewhere and Ryan said he'd go shopping with me during the day, spending money always cheers me up. I'm probably just being the irrationally selfish person that I am. I shouldn't expect the entire city of New Orleans to hold their breath until I get home, I just got myself too excited I guess. bad habit of mine. always ends in disappointment. well I think I'm better now. 010310 ... mikey =o( 010310 ... mikey i hate checking my email and having none. or having no ICQ "uht ohs" waiting for me. i got home and like always hurry and check...nothing. there was a time i knew a million people online and slowly dwindled down to a very few..though those few i love dearly and im blessed...still. 010310 ... nocturnal ya know what's worse? thinking that you might have email at your address at school, then realizing you have no idea how to find out from here. so now I'm using another address which no one knows. oh well. 010310 ... mikey either is equally bad i think 010310 ... lil cricket www.mailstart.com you can check any email from anywhere. I use it to check my college email when I'm not in town. 010310 ... nocturnal AWESOME!!! thank you so much. oh I'm so excited now. 010310 ... dB Mikey, consider yourself lucky. Normally on a monday morning (in about 10 hours from now) I have between 50 to 70 e-mails sitting in my In-Box at work. I had to delete ICQ from every workstation I have just to get away from people. This technology is killing me very slowly with so many people demanding attention. That's why I come here. I can still be online, but get away from annouying little people. 010311 ... mikey and here we dont ask you for anything. see: hugs my friend 010311 ... dB That is exactly it Mikey! Here nothing is required. You can post (or in your case post HEAPS :-), or you can read or whatever. Nobody asks anything of you. My work is not only at work. It' follows me home. I spend 8-12 hours a day in my office at work online dealing with what seem to be children rather than clients. Then another 3 hours in my office at home. so that's already 9-15 hours a day online. Then you got weekends. Clients and other associates comeing over for meetings in my studio where I go to relax and get away from work. I havn't had a whole day to myself in... shit, 8 maybe 9 months. To get time to read you know what I did? I sold my car and threw away my drivers licence. That way I could read while waiting for the bus or while on the bus! That's the only time I have got to read. One of the greates pleasures I have and even that has been deprived me. This board and you people are mo online sanity. Here I can yell and scream, and I hope you guys don't take offence in anything I say. The only time I get to think, is when I'm on here. Man, I'm 20 years old! I got 3 companys riding on my shoulders, clients all over the planet, paperwork, orders, meetings, espionage stuff going on, law suits (people I am sueing, not the other way around), contracts commitments. I'm 20 and all I want to do is retire. 010311 ... mikey theres some out there like me who might wish to be in your shoes! your only 20? wow. i wish i had some ambition and drive when i was 20. instead im knocking on 30 (im 28) and i need to get my shit together and get things going. though there really is no rush. 010311 ... mikey already it seems Blather has helped you in some ways dB as it has helped me also. 010311 ... dB Mikey, I never asked for all this. I am only a drummer. In my heart and soul, that is what I do. All this other crap just happned. I got a job then suddenly everyone wants a peice of me. I have a mortgage for christs sake! and it's already nearly a third payed off! A house where I only go to sleep monday to thursday, then on friday I go to the studio to do more damn work. I own a homw that I don't even live in. You are lucky mate. You don't have to deal with all this. You have all the time in the world (well not really, but I'll get into that some other time). You can come and go as you please, you aren't responsible for anybody or anything. You got it made. 010311 ... Aimee I don't know whether to be pissed off, hurt, or depressed. Maybe I'm all of them. My best friend, Jon kissed me last week, and it was not just a friendly kiss, so I spend this entire week, confused out of my wits. Then he tells me that he doesn't know what it was but he's in love with someone else... a male.. talk about ouch. God right now I really would like to find someone who will just sweep me off my feet. It's not going to happen, but I do think it would be nice. 010311 ... guitar_freak way too much to say. we all need to find a place to escape our meaningless lives. a beach somewhere, an island, yeah thats better. we can escape away from the people you pretend to rule our lives, just cause stress and turmoil, the pains of being human 010311 ... dB who you calling human!? :-P 010311 ... nocturnal jesus mikey! what the fuck? I wasn't so pissed off earlier, but now, yeah. that's it. and I know, I pissed you off way more, at least that's what it seemed like, but really. now YOU are bugging the hell out of ME. oh, but I of course don't mean that in a bad way. dontcha just hate it when your words come back to haunt you? 010329 ... nocturnal wow. I sure was pissed off. wierd when you think something wasn't such a big deal, but you read something you wrote at the time and you think maybe you overreacted just a tad. 010402 ... silentbobfuckyou doesn't quite cover... 010719 ... Aimee is a state of being i've been in for the last week... god I'd love to fucking kill her or at least make her feel like shit by knocking her off her goddamn soapbox 010720 ... silentbob at myself for being nice to him, letting him think we're ok. we aren't ok. 010904 ... psychobabe its depressing thinking of how easily i can be set off these days. AH! something just fucking set me off there! my fucking mother complaining about every thing i do! *is to pissed she has to leave* 011120 ... psychobabe gah, things lately like at the end of school, those last two periods after lunch just have fucking pissed the fuck out of me, and i dont know why! 021113 what's it to you? who go blather from