keeping_busy her royal highness the quirk it usually works. it's a wonderful way of dealing with stuff. i put it off and put it off and never think about it. until a night like this. nothing particularly special about tonight, but everything is flooding back. i'm powerless to stop the onslaught. only solution is to collapse in the shower for an hour or so. using the water pressure to numb my skin. using the heat to hold me steady. using the sound of the falling water to quell the volume of my sobs. tomorrow i'll be fine. but tonight all i can do is drown myself in my own tears. 040228 ... . . 050518 what's it to you? who go blather from