dreamt birdmad sometimes to escape the day nothing out of reach in dreams 020106 ... silentbob i made this beautiful comic book. it was big and detailed and the dialog was typed. it was in black pencil. but no one wanted to see it. 020107 ... distorted tendencies I dreamt and awoke in a puddle of sweat. Hair drenched and dripping down my nude back, small defined muscles glistening in the moonlight. Hands clenched. Large blue vein pulsating, defined by the skin on my forehead. Grinding of teeth. Heaving of breasts, glistening slightly. Blood pressure s l o w i n g. I'll be fine, I'll be fine.. Alone, because there's no one there anymore. I'm alone.. And I'm scared. I dreamt of you, torturing me. 020305 ... nom last night i dreamt he was returning. i woke up sad, alone, knowing i was dreaming. 070322 ... hsg1437 the only english word to end in "MT" 070322 ... stork daddy for years caught adreamt in such things as could be expected by a boy such as me, it came as great surpise that something that could immediately and obviously matter so much had remained hitherto undreamt, 070322 ... unhinged i had dreamt of hands and teeth in those places in those ways in that bed but the reality of your hands and your teeth was so much better than any dream bruised with love i haven't made or felt love like that in a very long time 070323 ... nom i woke up sad 070415 ... nr that i had invited carrie brownstein to come out with us somewhere and she had accepted and i couldn't believe it. then unfortunately she called and had to cancel, but she was super nice about it and we talked for awhile about music. i can't remember the name of the band i mentioned or if it was even a real band, but i told her the three cities i'd seen them in. she asked which was the best, which led us to ponder whether musicians played better in certain cities. i was going to tell her i liked sleater-kinney in toronto, but then realized that was the only place i'd seen them. 150525 ... nr last night that i was in high school and had forgotten what my next class was. in the dream, i was realizing that i do that a lot, especially when it's math class, which it apparently probably was. and then waking up i realized i've had a lot of similar dreams like that. being unaware of my schedule, or unprepared for class, or late. for awhile i was dreaming that i hadn't finished a huge project in science class but was supposed to graduate. it's weird because i wasn't so worried about this stuff when i was actually in school. and even in the dreams, it's more apathy and 'hope i don't get caught' than worry about doing something wrong. 150601 ... nr that there was some kind of fight to the death scheduled between two groups of people (not sure why we were in a fight, but it was apparently inevitable). someone i've known since elementary school but haven't seen for years was giving me a ride to the fight, and he was on the opposing side. i begged him not to kill me on the way there. it was weird in general, but specifically because this guy is really nice and not at all murderery-seeming. 150608 ... nr last night that a guy told me he'd just got out of something long-term/serious. i asked how long, and he said, "since 1974." i paused, and asked, "how old are you?" he replied that he was 37. even in the dream, this didn't compute. maybe he was immortal? 150730 ... unhinged this word bothers me. visually. 150802 ... flowerock That I had a little bit of sunlight in my pocket. I stood in a mountain and took the sunshine out to shine it through a lense and prism that projected a rainbow on the moon in the dusk sky, to tell you something... you shined a rainbow right back, we used quick blinking patterns to relay our mwssages. 150804 ... epitome of incomprehensibility Me, phonetically. English-speaking mouths seem more suited to "nt" then "mt" blends and "dreamed" is easier to say. Also, flowerock, I liked that: it was a beautiful image. 150805 ... nr a blather-related dream. maybe my first ever? the page looked different; it was a paler, more washed-out colour (though oddly i can't remember what colour), and the most recent posts looked like they were permanently in an entry field (it looked somehow like the person had forgotten to press enter on their text, and you could somehow see it). i was looking a page on which jane said something to me like, "if you like dance performances, you should check out [insert long performance title here]." and unhinged mentioned one too. i was curious about this because i didn't remember ever being that interested in dance performances. 151102 ... nr you said, "you remind me of someone." i asked who. you replied, "tony danza." ...i mean, we're both human beings. 160813 ... nr that i posted something to red blather. i sadly don’t remember what it was, but it was really important to get it up here at that moment. 180303 ... mcdougall Of haunted destinations, made popular by modern cinematic representations. Were the places really haunted or were we feeling the spirits and their possession of us because we wanted to? After spending a week here, but before we packed for our return home, I wanted to leave the place that was now starting to resemble a mix between an amusement park and a museum, so we drove into Paris, and of course it wasn’t really Paris, but it was the same Paris that I’ve been to recently in my dreams. Monuments, parks, histoires. I wanted to show my friends a house I knew. But then, as always, I awoke. 220901 what's it to you? who go blather from