apathy arinna sitting motionless, clicking new songs to fill the soundtrack to nothing. if i only the sky wasn't pushing me into a corner, if only indifference wasn't so comforting, if only my heartbeat was images... excuses pile like bricks on my shoulders. and if only i could shake the invisible weights would dispel into the flickering lights. 010330 ... silentbob i can live with this. this doesn't affect my life. this doesn't harm me. i'm ok with the way things are. i don't care. 010330 ... silentbob and for the most part when someone is really apathetic they dont even realize it, how boring and how without substance their tired little lives are. 010330 ... unhinged i don't think i've ever been this drunk before. it's nice to know that i can still type. 010331 ... forgetful_experimentor brrrbr. whenever i say anything today it's not entirely true because I'm not saying brrrbr at the same time. brrrbr cannot be said because it is the sound used to illustrate the absense of effort, desire, stress, need. it actully sounds a bit like power supply hum, or the feeling of nitrous oxide in your fingertips. 011130 ... no reason a good thing or bad, i can't decide... too much caring has caused apathy for me in some things, things i probably shouldn't be apathetic about. sometimes it's the only possible defense mechanism. to remain sane...or is it even sane? not to care...or to care, but to be in denial? a lot of apathetic people are aware that they are apathetic, they just can't care. 020327 ... pilgrim Apathy is the entrance ramp to Ennui 020328 ... misstree The nickname for my scarlet_muse... we never had any illusions about saving eachother, but we were each moths to eachother's flame, the only thing that shined in this cold little town. 020328 ... silentbob Oh! How i missed you! 030327 ... belly fire I feel part of the machine its mechanisms, my purpose found in its design I care for neither the tug of its locomotion nor the natural opposition I am a gear I am a link I click and turn and move until my flesh is warm and sore I do not hear the noises around me; the voices, the andons they become the din of the great machine of which I am a part it has bred in me a growing apathy, naturally I can see it in the faces around me I have been affected by the process, by the market 040204 ... silentbob what i wouldn't do for you now 040807 ... crOwl fuck you 060203 ... misstree the substance that still sucks at the back of my head as i try to raise myself out of this muck 060204 ... shulamith i'm not interested in your life story. please just let me do my job. 081017 ... nr i've become less likely to develop strong feelings for people these days. i don't know if it's just that my interests in people have changed or if it's fear- and apathy-related. 161228 ... unhinged (i haven't given a shit about someone in awhile either. mine is definitely directly related to the number of assholes ive come across lately) 161228 ... nr i'm having trouble with anything that takes effort 211023 ... nr when you do a lot but can't extract much meaning out of any of it even though you know it's there 221001 what's it to you? who go blather from