played_a_part
Dafremen
What
Its
Like
To
Be
The
Bad
Man
(
Played
A
Part
)
R
. Dafremen
When
I
hurt
you
Did
you
think
I
meant
it
?
Somehow
you
make
it
feel
that
way
And
I
can't
bear
the
way
that
weighs
Upon
my
heart
, upon
my
mind
Can't
bear
the
thought
that
somehow
In
time
,
you
might
be
lost
to
me
Cuz
I
was
playing foolishly
The
cost
of
delving
into
me
and
finding
Ways
of
saying
things
that
aren't
there
Looking
upon
the
ones
I
care
about
With
a
derogatory sneer upon
my
words
Who
would
have
thought
I
had
it
in
me
?
I
never
knew
that
I
could
kid
me
Into
playing
such
a
part
I
was
the
phantom
of
the
opera
Twisted
disciple
of
that
mantra
Of
a
hateful
way
of
living
that's
a
lie
But
when
I
look
into
your
eyes
that
melts
away
The
actor
in
me
stops
his
acting
For
a
moment's
empathy
Touches
on
the
real
in
me
The
me
in
me
that
cannot
bear
what
I
am
doing
Begs
me
"
Stop
!"
I
suppose
I
could
have
Guess
that
I
should
have
left
my
curiosity
at
the
door
But
the
sleuth
in
me
still
had
to
know
some
more
How
would
you
react
If
I
pushed
you
to
the
brink
?
What
happens
when
my
acting
Is
the
way
somebody thinks?
Would
you
still
find
some
compassion
For
their
hardened
heart
?
Would
you
look
beyond
the
words
To
find
the
actor
of
the
part
they
play
?
Would
you
still
find
your
eyes
all
misted
up
With
tears
and
filled
with
longing
To
ease
some
stranger's
pain
Though
he
lashed
out
at
you
?
And
though
the
hurting
wasn't
in
me
I
still
played
the
role
Still
watched
the
scene
unfold
Because
I
knew
that
in
this
testing
lay
the
key
The
key
to
understanding
why
these
Crude hypocrisies
Can
bring
the
kindest
to
his
knees
Can
turn
the
sweetest
of
people
Into
the
meanest
of
people
Why
the
antagonist antagonizes
And
why
the
public
so
despises
Something
I
feel
only
sadness
for
For
a
lonely
figure
beating
at
The
lonely
door
that
is
his
habitual
reaction
To
a
lifetime
of
pain
.
This
wasn't
me
I
hope
you
see
that
now
I
hope
that
you
can
brush
aside
all
doubt
And
you'll
believe
me
now
For
I
played
a
part
I've
never
felt
Felt
your
cold
rejection
dealt
to
me
As
I
never
have
before
It's
a
pitiful
thing
to
be
the
one
Behind
the
lashing
out
It's
as
sad
as
I
imagined
to
be
hurting
And
to
have
the
shouting
Avalanche
To
have
the
ones
you
need
Become
your
enemies
Because
they
can't
look
beyond
The
cold
hard
words
and
try
to
see
A
harsh
reaction
often
hides unhappiness
Masks
a
tenderness
That
may
have
been
there
all
along
In
that
frozen
heart
may
be
a
song
Whose icy
words
bely
its
tender
notes
A
melody
awaiting
sweet
release
To
be
brought
on
by
patient
caring
From
the
world
beyond
I
felt
so
blue
to
finally
know
From
watching
you
yell
as
you
spoke
That
a
man
whose
snide
derision
Masks
a
lump
within
his
throat
And
whose
hardened
heart
Must
someday
turn
to
stone
May
walk
without
the
tenderness
he
seeks
But
rather
,
walk
alone
in
his
calamity.
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Dafremen
And
I'm
sorry
for
whatever
bad
feelings
I
have
caused
you
,
be
they
contempt
,
hate
, dislike,
disgust
or
what
have
you
.
You
all
deserve
much
better
than
to
have
those
feelings
popping
up
whenever
you
see
my
name
.
I
wish
that
for
you
,
honestly
.
Happiness
and
day's
worth
of
dreams
come
true
...every
day
.
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