i'm_here minus and I'm scared. I was drawing back, but I saw the error of my ways before I drove you away... but what about the next time? 010308 ... plus next time? 010308 ... minus DAMNIT!!!! I must go... Love you, hate corporate AMERIKKKA... 010308 ... mikey here also. :::raises hand::: 010308 ... nocturnal I'm here, but I think I'm the only one. dammit. 010309 ... twiggie and not by choice. 010309 ... nocturnal I'm finally home and no one but stella (my dog) is here with me. is anyone at least blathering? 010309 ... chiidi ever present ancient and terrible 010309 ... mikey 1am i just got home. im here! 010310 ... nocturnal I'm guessing you just got home from birthday celebrations, do tell what you did. 010310 ... mikey simple. went to my moms for home cooking she made me meatloaf very simple yes but i live on my own and dont get good old home cooking so it was pure heaven. thats all i did 28th b-day no big deal really. going to a rc car race tomorrow though will be fun. 010310 ... nocturnal awesome. I've never been to a car race, I plan to go one day, though. course I say that about a lot of things 010310 ... mikey this is little remote controled built cars heehee its kinda neat 010310 ... nocturnal never been to one of those, I don't even know if anyone does that around here. I've never heard about it, that's for sure. 010310 ... mikey im sure youve seen little tiny cars people use a hand held controller to run? come on you have to have at some point! 010310 ... nocturnal I've seen the cars, just not people racing them. 010310 ... mikey you cant use your normal email from there? 010310 ... nocturnal that's my school address and I just don't know how to get to it. I have other addresses, though. I'm using one to blather. 010310 ... Aimee I'm here, I'm always here, unless I'm gone, and then I'm only here in spirit, but I will be back guaranteed. But I'm here now... is anyone else here? 010311 ... johnny west I am. 010311 ... mikey me to i left my newspaper article long enough to visit here to 010311 ... johnny west that's some pretty fishy stuff you're coming up with, mikey. great fishy stuff. if you haven't already taken another look, take a peak at the history of the anorexic fish. it's crazysexyfishystuff! 010311 ... florescent light sometimes I wish I wasn't. 010311 ... johnny west (jumps sideways into oblivion) 010311 ... nocturnal but I shouldn't be. I should be 5 feet away where my books are. I should be studying. well, really I should be getting ready to go out since it's Halloween, but my life sucks. damn you, liz! 011031 ... little wonder and everyone else is at the homecoming game. I just want to go back to my bed and sleep for a couple of hours. i have no reason to be awake. 020928 ... kerry where you are is where you are supposed to be. thats what johanna says to me. but somehow she is always complaining about it. 020929 ... belly fire can you see me? I can't help but wonder what would happen then... 020930 ... Fido (To be sung to your tune.) Here's to a kind who who are just that! True to their selves and that is that! Who face the Man with grin and gin, And won't let them in who frown on sin, For they know life is written not in ink, But in the feelings to which we drink! Here's to the kind who are just that! Here's to a life that I have down pat, A life I know will lead me there, To the place I long for, I know it's there, Waiting for my feet to walk it's shore Shoulders raw from years of chore, Of searching for the one who'd walk with me, Through pain and sorrow and all the hate, Who could look impossible in her face And laugh, and laugh, and laugh that grace. She's out there in that land, that land The one on which I've yet to land The one I know without knowing That I know I'll love! Here's to finding home! 040922 ... uow i really don't have much to say i got out of bed a while ago i was naked in my dream i was running along the tracks i couldn't find the train station i was supposed to go to get my eye checked today i told myself i would but then last night i decided i am better and that if it is something serious i'd rather not know yesterday and the day before i played with paint trying to finish a springtime painting i think it's almost done now i'm trying to keep my eyes open i'm thinking of going back to sleep i don't know why i feel so alone in this 040923 ... kali exactly 41 days since someone else was, and that was not a guest. how did i get here? i never asked for this life. 040923 ... belly fire I'm here in this other place that has now become my life. My happy life full to the brim. There is so much here. I find I have so few hours in the day to merely appreciate everything. I am here and you are there. There in the place where your life is full of everything too. Here, I think of you. I sit down at my computer... I pick up the phone... You are not there. 050201 ... belly fire bah. 050310 ... little wonder still. it feels like it's been an eternity. nearly a second year gone by, and still i'm in the same spot? why do these things take so long? why did what i love the most go by so fast? how the hell do i leave? 080208 ... PeeT to expletive you up! 120710 what's it to you? who go blather from