disapointment Clarey Clarey Shit! I want to go on holiday! Why can't I make myself safe enough to go? Why do I constantly feel so fucking run down & crap? Life is not worth living when I feel this way. Life is not worth living. I hate it. I hate myself. Why can't I get through an afternoon of shopping without feeling suicidally depressed & so ill I can barely stand? How am I meant to lead a life?! Why can't I go on holiday & forget this shit? Because I'll die. Yay xx 030716 ... ferret ointment 030716 ... MeKoy disapointement well hell only one word thats me. 031226 what's it to you? who go blather from