composure elimeny trembling.... shaking.... I swore I wouldn't do this to myself... This is the heart and soul of fear... realization that you aren't near... and never will be again. Hope... fading. Horror... surfacing. This. THIS is called Hysteria. Complete loss of myself... Complete disentegration of Composure... Decadence... I need sweet solitude... This is like living a Nightmare. Except this is smack-you-in-the-face Reality. I'm not gonna wake up from this one. There is no complete way to describe the epitome of the loss of Composure. There is no way to completely reflect the desperation associated with that- Awful- Hysteria. Oh my God- What have I Done? What have I Lost? I'll never have this again... It's lost forever..... and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. That's the worst part. Complete and utter lack of control. "so there." 991216 ... amy spin. 991216 ... girl_jane It'll all be lost. 030314 ... three words absolutely_insane deserving composure 050425 what's it to you? who go blather from