disillusioned_with_faith perfectly_chaotic I am simply disillusioned. It seems that as the moon is waxing my faith has been waning. It is easy to have faith when things are going relatively easy. Yet, that faith, it is funny how quickly it vanishes during difficult times. On some level, I know, jail or prison, everything will be all right. Yet on another, my mind is screaming at me that things are not okay and will not be okay. As the day of reckoning approaches I am becoming terrified to the point that people telling me things will be alright has just been irritating the hell out of me. It is incredible how easy it can be to become attached to the negative possibilities when I cannot even say exactly what will happen yet. 110910 ... perfectly_chaotic faith_in_difficult_times 110911 ... () (see: benefit_of_the_doubt_addiction ) 110912 what's it to you? who go blather from