when_i_think j_blue about me i touch myself 010327 ... nocturnal my head gets worn out and starts to hurt, so thinking is something I try to avoid at all costs. life's more interesting when you don't look for any real meaning or purpose, just do things just to do them and get nothing from it, intellectually or otherwise. 010327 ... birdmad sometimes it makes me ache like that feeling when you wake from a long nap that you never intended to take (on the bus home, on the couch reading the paper or watching the evening news) it makes me feel all out of sorts 010327 ... unhinged about the love i used to hold it just makes me realize how empty i am now. 010327 ... chanaka about what i am about to do, i become nervous, happy, and excited. all at once. life is confusing, and is becoming more so by the hour. 010328 ... dB these days, about one small action can have such drastic effects, I wonder what would happen if I had not taken that action. Then I zoom out from that, and see that the action I took is having great effects on other people as well. Then I zoom out a bit more and see that the people who thes other people know are also effected. It makes me sad that these people can't think for themselves. That they relied on me to be there and do that thing, and suddenly I was not there anymore. I zoom out again. I see the whole human race. Suddenly, I don't feel sad anymore. They were lost long before I left. I shouldn't feel bad because human nature is the way it is. No amount of telling people to be independant and act for themselfves will accomplish anything, besause they would only be doing what you are telling them, thereby nullifying the act of acting on their own. 010328 ... dean-bean I fail to act. Poor hamlet. It took him a long time to do something badly. I guess he lucked out though. He got a play and all poor fortinbras got was an extra castle. A haunted one at that. 010329 ... anonymouse when i think i frighten myself 010531 ... surrealchereal it's all the time. constant, relentless with out rhyme my brain is always going my thoughts can't stop flowing i dull it with drugs they can't replace hugs i have always used drugs well 30 years anyway. there isn't really a better way. it's how i get my heart to say i'm OK 010531 ... florescent light ...I am 010531 ... soia I dream about it I chew it while I sleep (it's like wasting everything on someone else's dream) 010601 ... spoons my world falls apart 011030 ... jess when i work i work hard when i play i play hard but when i think i fall asleep that was on a poster i had as a child. It always hung up on the back of my brother and I's bedroom door, and when we moved he got it but i took it when he moved. theres the history of the fucking poster are ya' happy? j/j ua know i love ya 020403 ... birdmad it_hurts 020403 ... silentbob When I think of all the times I've tried so hard to leave her She would turn to me and start to cry And she promises the Earth to me and I believe her After all this time, I don't know why? Aaah, girl, girl...girl, girl 020404 ... Counting Crows ... of heaven, deliver me in a black winged bird I think of dying. -adam duritz 021209 ... carlita when_i_think of you, my heart smiles 030723 ... nom when i think about it all i just want to laugh 061004 ... Fido in biology and eschatology I read this world and what it oughta be. celebrities and wannabes get drunk in droves and suck liquors and hoes but stumble down the same steps and go where the music goes, and tomorrow we'll all dread to know if we really could've fucked that average so-and-so. and so it goes! night begets night! and from the dark emerges another shrinking light! sunny sidewalks slick in spew, squealing sixteen-year-olds in need of a curfew! quiet down please, you, me, we pissed persons in need of Parsons who yak about patience a lot who're content to have only what they've already got. when do I get a bigger TV set? I need flatscreen! I need widescreen! I have leather and surround sound and special features to get! can't you see? I must hear commentary while I piss! So what I've got to buy a second disc? vomit a want-list in Gucci or squalor. vomit a $40 shell fish or grease from Shakey's Pizza Parlor, you'll see you and me well, hell, we! are just two halves of another American dollar. so pass the effin joint, my friend, I will not walk any more unless the bar is farther. 061005 ... nameless wow, i like red. Sorry was that spam. i will just remain nameless. 061006 what's it to you? who go blather from