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today_my_life
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mon
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yesterday my life
changed today it
changed the future
is waking up
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040216
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crOwl
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is like caveh zahedi's video diary,
"in the bathtub of the world," but i don't use a camera.
my eyes are the lens.
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040217
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joana.
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Lyn Hejinian
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040217
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crOwl
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blogspot
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DammitJanet
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took a huge turn.
sadness turned to anger.
loneliness turned to comfort.
unmotivated turned to productive.
it was a great day. i hope this feeling keeps up.
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040218
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jinx
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is ok. Things are being taken care of...I'm taking care of myself.
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040310
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mon
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continues
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040311
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damaged
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has been erratic
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040311
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jane
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fell through that trap in the forest floor. i'm going to die this week. i can feel it. this trip to london will be the end of my life. this is why the debt has not bothered me. this is why the pregnancy scare did not bother me. it is why i have not been bothered by blaise ignoring me. it is why i have been working furiously to learn so much. it is why i moved to new york. i am destined to die this week. it should be known that i love all of you, here and on blue. i've devoted four wonderful years to blather, & i wouldn't take it back for anything. it's been a great ride, see you on the flip side
bon voyage
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mon
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peace
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040312
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lotuseater
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told me to make more music. who am i to disagree? *hooks up the keyboard and drum machine to the distortion pedal*
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040312
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nom
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is
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040323
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notme
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today
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040625
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notme
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today
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040625
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notme
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tooooooooo day! today twoday tew day dew tae day two day
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notme
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today today
today
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notme
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day to day
today
true eh
2A
today
to: Day
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unhinged
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the slowest tick of slow moving time
i can't see past my nose these days
i'm lonely
homely
constricted
waiting for pain
i walk down the street
eyes cast at my feet
i can't even look a stranger in the eye
that kind of interaction
any kind of interaction
means shit to me
the effort of it
shit
yeah, it means nothing to me
i've got more important things to worry about today
like keeping my back turned
my feet on the path of walking_away
i sat today
did some tonglen for you
but i have to keep my feet on
the path of walking_away
you don't make me cry anymore
no use turning back to tears
i still love you
and today my life
all these past few years
boiled down to
not wanting to cry anymore
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040626
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unhinged
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GET OUT OF MY HEAD
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040628
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unhinged
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feels like a suffocating bubble that i can't pop
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050717
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APRicochetMVP
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is one day closer to when i get to see her
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050718
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o n m
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always my life
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raze
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today my life turned to me and said, "hey, you're living me, aren't you?" and i said, "yeah, i suppose i am." and we shook hands. it's a funny thing, shaking hands with your own life. my life has a stronger handshake than most people. that was a pleasant surprise. lame handshakes make my skin crawl.
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unhinged
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is dreary
he wants to talk because i haven't had much to say to him recently. this could end well, it could end badly. just slightly ironic that we pick valentines_day of all days to discuss what's going on with us.
last valentines_day i started the fight that ended the longest relationship i've ever had.
(i shouldn't project the past onto today but looking for the common threads of history has been a hobby of mine since college)
i want things to be different with you
i want you to be different than them
i want the asshole magnet i seem to carry around
to be disabled
i want people in my life that actually give a fuck
you took the first step
was it soon enough?
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PeeT
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wow. this is intense.
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what's it to you?
who
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blather
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