to_forgive_is_divine Arwyn I don't feel divine. I don't feel special or anything like that. I forgave him because it hurt too much to stay angry with him. Yes, he raped me. But he was my friend. There was something wrong with him when he did it. I knew there had to be. So when he e-mailed me, six months later, genuinely asking my forgiveness, and genuinely repentent, explaining he's going through PTSD, I forgave. I missed my Adam. I missed him. I hope that one day he'll be whole again. but I'll never trust him as much again. 060223 ... *SuPeR^ChIcK* I am sorry to hear that your friend Adam raped you. Rape is a scary thing, I know, I am a survivor myself. Forgiving him is the only way to make yourself whole again also. 060223 what's it to you? who go blather from