dream_compliments epitome of incomprehensibility I wake up in bed, a large bed; the view from the window looks like the atrium of a Brock University building, the view I used to have from the café part of the library. But that I don't remark on. It's the fact that David is lying next to me. At first this is comforting, and then it strikes me as unusual to sleep with someone you've broken up with (even if not in a sexual way). And now he's in another relationship - for real, now, not like in my jealous dream last year. I don't feel jealous. I just feel like I'm in the wrong place. So I ask him about it and he says something dismissive, like, "But your presence isn't serious." Offended, I move farther away. But then I think an action like that might be cheesy or silly somehow, so I turn around again. He props himself up on one elbow. With the other he puts on sunglasses. "Don't feel bad," he says, or something like it. "When you get creative, you're really..." he makes a motion like he's holding a frying pan. "You're really frying, not just trying. And you can do that better than me." ... "Frying" is apparently an expression like "cooking" - doing well at something. It makes me smile when I wake up. I'm fine with my dream putting him a little out of character (not the silliness itself, but the sunglasses and the random rhyming) as long as I can get a little confidence boost. Because when he broke up with me, or rather just before, he hinted that I wasn't good enough for him even if he didn't say it in those words, and that rankled. That added anger and resentment to plain sadness, stirring my competitive side but also despair about being able to "compete"...pah. Yes, he's richer and smarter and more practical and better educated than me. But I always had an edge on him in terms of creativity. 251201 ... e_o_i ...How can you put sunglasses on with an elbow? I meant "with the other arm." 251201 ... e_o_i (But maybe I'm just being creative.) 251201 ... nr money, practicality, and education aren’t indicators of worth (well, i guess money is literal monetary worth, but that’s it), and intelligence is subjective, and there are tons of types. you are super intelligent and creative! not to mention continuously educating yourself. “pah” to men viewing people like that, but i’m glad he provided some dream silliness. that was a waking_life compliment, e_o_i. take that! 251201 what's it to you? who go blather from