ive_got_the_knives so fucking lost i can just never tell when i open my hands which way they'll be pointing and that's not fair on me on anyone around me and if you woke up somewhere else, would you wake up as someone else? i'm not sure but i keep trying every night, i'm trying. i fell asleep in the park again last night. partly from exaustion partly from fear and partly from the self distructive urge the urge to self distruct she was right when she said its not that i want to die it's just that i don't want to live like this 031203 what's it to you? who go blather from