contemplating_breaking misstree sitting here in ohsolovely alice in wonderland outfit after ohsolovely night i should feel better, i am led to think, than this heavy sigh and tilting against someone who isn't there, and it's almost worse that i think i know you wish you were because we keep bounding off the borders of coffin_nail and all_i_ever_wanted. and what i think tops even that is that you instilled this bastard hope that tomorrow, among a thousand zombies, we will find eachother, and it will matter. and what trumps all, planting plump marschino of masochism is that it was *me* that took insecurity and drove it into the heart it was meant to protect, and even now, wounded kitten in caring arms, i'm too far gone to admit. 081026 what's it to you? who go blather from