a_t_his_po_in_t_i'me h|s|g so_far_as i_can_tell i_am_extremely ocd deep_ending how you look at it that's the_good_news the_bad_news is I'm_not_gay why_bad it would have made sense out of a lot of things, but I'm not so it doesn't. Which leaves me dealing with OCD that is making a lot of sense but I'm not too happy about. Model: there is a small circle inside and tangent to a larger circle. Previously I have seen this as ego. It is but more subset to it rather than containing all the ego. OCD repeats cycles within this smaller circle and is subset to ego. How did I manage to break_the_cycle so far? Relaxation. Breathwork. compulsively_relaxing until that itself faded. letting_go of fear, of "here". much_work_remains 100727 what's it to you? who go blather from