collarbone_drop jane walking today. feeling empty. see ribs? unhealthy is a turn-on. fat & stupid. spank. rotten meat. faded. decay. rust. crumble. fall apart. worn. grainy. blurred. decompose. yesterday's news. pushed away. nobody's here anymore. abandoned house. broken. angry. passionate. nothing makes sense. if i'm not back again this time tomorrow... help myself? take a walk. eating makes you high; so does not eating. see a girl sitting, hunched over into a huge arc. only because she's tall. my arc is subtle. i can touch my toes. that's a plus. digestion? hardly. worst apple ever. bent my arm wrong. skin twists, bones don't. head hits on air. walking through particles. stinging sclera. collarbone drop. jaw sore. tongue on teeth. bit in just to taste some meat. spit slap. sidewalk. what is this place? how did i get here? bookstore, i'm thinking, but nocat's cradle, only "legal & professional". you know the kind. filler books. nothing but useless information. no song of songs. canticum canticorum. no kissing the wind. no zephyr come lately. no hummingbirds & frogs. no lighthouses. no ekstasis or poeisis. no heroin. no ice-9. no rolling stones. no strawberry tarts. no upside-down man. no dinosaurs. no scratch-n-sniff. no campfire tales. no coming of age. pass by, disappointment. looking angry. hunched over, subtle arc. saunter. don't fuck with me. i hope i look it. i have the nausea. long for poems. remember the craft? remember the class? sinking back. files are dusty. i remember now. i had the dream. a bit fresher then. free-er. one foot in the grave. time to go back. throw apple in trash. three elevators ding. i'm not gonna ride with you folks. alone for a bit. questions everywhere. nothing stops. guilt passes. what's happening? full moon tonight. no wonder. everyone's magnetized. clenching tides like jackets. waiting for the rush. waiting for kairos. things come & go. everything is a cycle. creation, destruction. ouroboros. i'm thinkin' too much. but the anger is gone. 070926 ... very cool 070926 ... j the cooler version is here: http://www.artconspiracy.com/gallery_item.aspx?area=word&itemid=119997&id=2144115017 because it has hyperlinks. 070926 ... backflip why do people always act themselves ? i mean actors or actresses always do the same type of films because it suits their character, you know like the one that did Lisa Robertston in a business class toilet from Darwin to Mumbai, what a perfect example of someone acting out their role play in reality. An example of someone that like intense relationships, no i don't know him, not at all. did he ever get an Oscar for being so god damn sexy ? i'm still confused about what i want to do with my life, maybe i should try acting one day. 070927 what's it to you? who go blather from