it's_been_three_weeks nonlucid since i stopped seeing him every day ((because the holidays started)) even though i've seen him twice since then and i feel ok with not seeing him, now like I can find something else to do, and i don't need him, and there's still a precious week where he's far away, before I'll see him again the last time i felt like this, he'd been away for ((three weeks)) and then he came back, and i was lost again must... regain... control... damn, i still feel like calling him and know if i see him, i'll be lost what to do, what to do, what to do, what to do........................... 050109 what's it to you? who go blather from