ben
the swinger of birches is a nice person to talk to on the internet. he used to model for abercrombie and fitch. i think he is one of those boys that is interesting in a boy sort of way. the kind that has nothin out of the ordinary to talk about. 021125
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cocoon gets to have the honour of being the first person i've cried about. the first person i've really wanted. the first person i've been...heartbroken about?

honestly, is trying to be friends really a good idea?

i want you to want me more. i want you to show it. i want you to let me into your life. i wish you werent poly. i wish that you'd met me first. i wish you werent so lovely.

i'm trying really hard to be okay with this. and somedays its fine and oh so easy. and somedays i just want to cry. and i keep thinking yknow, there's millions of guys out there. there must be someone else for me. but it took so long for me to ever feel this way that i wonder, will i ever find another? which is a cliche ofcourse. you probably will. i probably will. but it took so long for me to ever feel this way that i wonder...
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