dissapointment Clarey Shit! I want to go on holiday! Why can't I make myself safe enough to go? Why do I constantly feel so fucking run down & crap? Life is not worth living when I feel this way. Life is not worth living. I hate it. I hate myself. Why can't I get through an afternoon of shopping without feeling suicidally depressed & so ill I can barely stand? How am I meant to lead a life?! Why can't I go on holiday & forget this shit? Because I'll die. Yay xx 030716 ... ferret ointment 030716 what's it to you? who go blather from