im_not_here rh this isn't happening 030126 ... x i wish i could say this enough to believe it 030317 ... whitechocolatewalrus i'm not flying inside clouds laughing inside churches running inside malls dancing inside minds. i'm not here. [i'm not there] 040217 ... birdmad between my derangements and my estrangements, it always seems to feel that way 040217 ... x finish this beer, pills upon pills settling in, who knows where i'll be. once again, not getting much done i suppose. 040217 ... thieums And ceci n'est pas une pipe. 090730 ... In_Bloom Instead I'm walking in that place where the sky was black but for bright stars and the flutter of bats chasing night bugs I'm there, straining to recognize faint music playing from an open doorway 090730 what's it to you? who go blather from