bared_teeth deb it almost takes all the joy of your return away to know you have to leave again- how am i supposed to smile knowing that? and the wall goes up once more me, trying to be brave, trying to save you the trouble of fixing this heart that breaks with a sneeze- i've got the thread the needle i'll do a slipshod job once more but then maybe i won't crumble to pieces at the sight of you i'm afraid i'll break if i have to do this much longer 010329 what's it to you? who go blather from