im_not_here rh this isn't happening 030126 ... x i wish i could say this enough to believe it 030317 ... whitechocolatewalrus i'm not flying inside clouds laughing inside churches running inside malls dancing inside minds. i'm not here. [i'm not there] 040217 ... birdmad between my derangements and my estrangements, it always seems to feel that way 040217 ... x finish this beer, pills upon pills settling in, who knows where i'll be. once again, not getting much done i suppose. 040217 what's it to you? who go blather from