happily_suicidal jane of course i'm happy. maybe the most happy i've been in years, excluding illegal drug usage. but of course there's always a catch. when i was fifteen i fell in love, & we couldn't be together. i was so happy to love & to be loved, but at the same time drove myself crazy with the limitations of the relationship. on valentine's day i threw a lamp against the wall & cut myself with the shards. today i cringed at the thought of falling again, knowing that this time i would blow my brains out with his gun. 050717 what's it to you? who go blather from