why_must_we Bizzar reach out into the abyss and be disappointed when nothing is there. play this game. be so different. i love all of your broken pieces. i'd glue them back together if you'd let me. and then i would marvel at this new version of you, and show you why it's better. i want to bathe in your darkness. curl up there and rest my heart. its chambers have been calling your name. sometimes i pretend the echo is you. sometimes i dream about you. that you found a way to call me home. that i could be enough. that you trusted me with your secrets. and sometimes i get lucky, and my waking reality bends just enough so that the dreams are real - just for a moment. and in that moment i can feel you. your breath on the back of my neck. a heavy arm across my side. a deep sigh to pull you awake. and i can smell your skin. i imagine it smells like a campfire on a cool fall night. crisp and smoky. and i breathe you in. then i wonder if you know. that i would sing to you. that i would kiss away your tears. that i would love all of your dark and dirty corners. that i don't even want to clean them, i am content to lay in your mess. in your deepest hole. on your coldest days. i would lay beside you in your mess. 220304 ... Bizzar what would you say if i told you that i memorized the raindrops that clung to your eyebrows that day? those perfect little beads that gathered from the mist that kissed our faces? envious of the ones that dropped to your lips. imagining being born at your brow to die at your mouth... never had i imagined i might wish to be a rain drop. perhaps one of the ones that dampened your shirt, causing it to cling to your skin. wondering what your skin might feel like. what it might smell like. and i wonder what you'd think if you knew that i'd even settle for being one mixed in the mud that caked your boots. that i'd happily let you walk all over me just for the chance to be close to you. and how i wish i could tell you that i have dreamt of your arms. felt their warmth in my bed. that i have wished to be the tears that travel your cheek, since i can't be the one to kiss them away. i wish i could show you how safe i would keep your heart. i wish i could tell you that i love your pieces. your shadow. your darkness. your mess. you. i love you. when you're undone. when you feel worthless. when you can't stand the sight of your reflection. when you feel like you're failing. when you can't catch up. why must we be this way. why must we be. almost touching but worlds apart. 220401 ... Bizzar i whisper your name to the wind. i close my eyes and imagine the syllables traveling over the distance. dancing in the breeze. i can see them soaring above fields, highways, homes… as the people below drift to dream, unaware of the love carried through the clouds above their heads, anxious to find their destination. i can see them twisting and twirling around each other, gently drifting through your open window, pausing above your bed to take in the beauty of you, just for a moment before kissing your cheek and whispering in your ear: “i love you”. 220717 ... Bizzar part. when it feels like every atom in my body vibrates to the beat of your heart. and that they divided themselves in half to try to stay behind to be with you when you pulled away. you pulled away, but everything about you pulls me in. and i miss you before you’re even gone. and i want so much more of you. 220903 what's it to you? who go blather from