overachiever pralines&cream I've been an overachiever all my life, until last year, my sophomore year, and I felt complacent being an underachiever (3.4 GPA, C in AP world history, tsk tsk). I figured I'd do what makes me happy. I'll play soccer, I'll play volleyball, I'll take showers and read my own books, and do homework when I'm not too tired. But being around my overachieving friends made me miss my 4.0 days. Now, this year, i'm back to being an overachiever. 4.3 Soccer player Editor-in-chief to be Pepperdine, here i come, please let me in. 020113 ... j_blue hopefully not specter of potential amplifies gravity freedom comes through disappointment 020114 ... ugh Overly privileged, perky, rich little snobbish plastic doll of a girl... We're all waiting for the day when your perfect little pink dreamhouse comes crashing down and you land on the grass...hope you end up melting to death in the scorching sun or get eaten by the dog from next door. 020612 ... Bespeckled Alright now. I did get into Pepperdine - but didn't go there. I HAVE had my fair share of trials and tribulations and am still living them now and working my way up from the bottom of the totem pole and budgeting my hurting checking account to make ends meet and pay my rent and bills - all for the hope of and with the insane drive of conquering the world (or at least my field) and becoming rich and powerful all so I don't have to eat Annie's Mac and Cheese anymore and have a lot left over to provide for my kids and give to charity. I can see where I would have been annoyed at someone like myself back then - priviledged and worry-free as I was and taking it all for granted. But still - - that was a shitty thing to say! 090310 ... ? Bespeckled I believe that ugh wasn't referring to you. I believe they were talking about the doll Barbie. :) Read it over again and maybe you can see it in that light as well. The whole reference about a pink house and the dog eating her really in my mind alludes to Barbie. But I could be wrong. 090310 ... unhinged never i was, but a phd and a better job are looking insanely tempting at the moment. 090310 ... tender_square "you didn't know you were an overachiever?" my mother was skeptical of what had been imperceptible to me. "well, i mean, i was never a top student in my classes..." "so you relate overachieving with academics?" i recall striving in grade school, but it stemmed from a quest to be better than my frenemy, and i almost always fell short. "ever since you were a child, you've wanted to be noticed. you want to be good at what you do and be recognized for it." my mother held up the mirror and i tried to stare into nearly forty years of being and compress the images into understanding. "my analyst said something curious to me in our last session," i began. "he said that i seem to portray myself as a shy, librarian type when that's not who i am, and it's giving off a conflicting message." "you dress to stand out," she said. 230807 what's it to you? who go blather from