and_crash___you're_gone walking slowly home you sit so seemingly simply sinking into your thick green velvet sofa eyes unlocked but the people don't return your glances. you pull up your sleeve, dying for something to give. anything. you know the pain won't forever stop. you know it can't just go. banding and disbanding your life, how long can you last? so lemme do it i gotta do it, you think oh god oh god oh god you feel the gush begin to make you rush and you think it's gonna last now it's gonna be like this always and you breathe so deep so hard you can't do a thing about it and it's so beautiful but it makes your eyes wilt still seeing, though, seeing things still like see-through silver seas. until it ah it oh it changes somehow it twists it bleeds it fucking burns it burns it burns and hours go by unnoticed and days go by unseen and crash crash implode, your time just disappears. 021207 ... icewater and with my muffled whimper you leave me cold with some sort of comfort in the word friendship, where I know I will never survive, my weak seduction grabbing at anything she can take captive. Later I'll pretend about you, but inside, beyond theres that shatter of words too calculated where you apologize for not being all I wish you would let yourself be to me. And I just wish I knew you. I just wish I knew you. 021207 ... jane sometimes i wish that i could just wish myself a way into a land of wishes and crash you're gone......... 021208 ... walking slowly home people pretended and still fucking pretend to understand you fuck them. 021217 ... walking slowly home because they're clouded misty and stupid. 021217 ... SuicidalAngel decisions decisions I know whats right but this feels too good to be wrong the many choices and colors of temporary happiness with others who share your joy supporting eachothers habbitual tendancies is it this or the grey lul of life it just seems to get better self induced happiness is only temporary like going down a slide in the park feeling the air along your face it's so exciting yet relaxing untill you feel the gravel scrape your skin and it's torn and bleeding discusting infectious wound you've hit the bottom it's all over - what now? 021219 ... icewater I don't mind. Just make sure you leave for good. 021224 ... walking slowly home sprinkle the sparklings sprink them so good sprink them blink over them they'll never know the difference, so let's go for a hike. 021224 ... walking slowly home well, it's been years now, years. and there's something you wished back when you could, something quiet so of course unnoticed. they never will still. you just couldn't stand the people who bundled themselves with the things without fringes. because really then, you thought, what's the point? 030118 ... crOwl they call him crash because you look at him and it becomes a collision. no turning back. deer in the headlights, swerve and you'll strike a tree. 050918 what's it to you? who go blather from