not_enough_pain
so fucking lost
blood
sheeting
down
my
shoulder
pouring
out
my
shirt
not
enough
pain
.
it
doesnt
hurt
enough
.
like
an
alcoholic
who
needs
more
each
time
these
slices
no
longer
help
.
salt
.
handfuls
of
salt
smashed
into
the
slices
pain
for
a
while
as
the
blood
turns
the
salt
to
pink
to
red
but
then
the
pain
dulls
again
and
the
blood
dries
up
holding
the
cuts
to
the
material
i
can
feel
the
gentle
tugging
as
i
move
around
.
comforting
.
but
it
doesnt
hurt
enough
anymore
there
has
to
be
something
else
i
can
do
.
its
not
enough
pain
not
enough
blood
to
fix
my
head
anymore
030103
...
applause
.
030103
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from