not_enough_pain
so fucking lost blood sheeting down my shoulder
pouring out my shirt

not enough pain.
it doesnt hurt enough.
like an alcoholic who needs more each time
these slices no longer help.

salt.
handfuls of salt
smashed into the slices

pain
for a while
as the blood turns the salt
to pink
to red

but then the pain dulls again
and the blood dries up
holding the cuts to the material
i can feel the gentle tugging
as i move around.
comforting.


but it doesnt hurt enough
anymore
there has to be something else
i can do.

its not enough pain
not enough blood
to fix my head
anymore
030103
...
applause . 030103
what's it to you?
who go
blather
from