vigil oculus orbis i have not gone to sleep yet i've been sitting here by my phone i called someone for help and then i called to see how you are doing they said you are better now i'm sorry if my intervention causes you more trouble in the interim, but i could not let you go, for if you had gone i would have followed i could not imagine continuing on having just discovered the wonder of you only to see you go this way dearest, all i ask is that if you see these words you will understand and not leave my reason is selfish: i have become hopelessly addicted to you i am trying even now to work out whatever details to rush to our side 010805 ... madness you obviously have no fucking clue the pain and misery you just put me through you hurt me a thousand times more than you helped me please don't ever talk to me again 010805 ... eye i could say the same, but since you now ask for my silence i will give it you scared me so bad that i was in the process of trying to get there now i love you goodbye 010805 ... bespeckled I keep my candle cupped within my hand, the flame burning strong while the wind slaps at my skin. I keep this hope for you, this bright light of hope in the rain. 030227 ... eye exeunt 050810 ... APRicochetMVP so a few months ago in the spring semester, a gay guy was attacked somewhere on campus. bad enough that somebody got beat up, but the police think it was motivated because of his sexual orientation. even worse. a week or so later, a candle light vigil was held in his honor. about a year before this happened, my friend justin was picking up a friend of his (who happened to be a girl about 21-ish, the same age as him) from a club right near campus. walking towards the place, he saw a group of about 5 marines trying to take advantage of her in an alley. he said that he was taking her home and they said that she was going with them and proceeded to beat the shit out of him. he ended up with a broken nose, partially broken jaw, a few chipped teeth and a broken orbital bone around his left eye. he was drugged up for weeks and he couldn't eat anything for 3 days after this whole ordeal. his roommate told me that he was coughing up blood for those 3 days. now i ask my school and the rest of humanity? where was justin's candle light vigil? we can all agree that the gay guy getting beat up for being gay was horrible, but there's a lot of gay people out there. a lot more than there are gentlemen or heroes. i hear a lot of people talk about how we need to stop separating people into groups. that when that stops, we'll all be able to live in peace and all that happy horse shit. while the intent of the vigil was good, shouldn't we be more worried about the fact that people are doing this to other people regardless of any other characteristics that define them? i won't dispute the fact that it was horrible that the gay guy got beaten up because he was gay, but he was a person first and foremost. 050810 what's it to you? who go blather from