ten_years_ago unhinged olga 090327 ... unhinged i didn't know what vice tasted like i was still pure untouched where my dreams of lips were mostly all i knew and when i thought of kisses i could hear melting ice dripping in the background the only memory i knew you were dying and i got on a plane anyway and i just realized it might have been the last gate photographic_memory where i felt him go so much reminds me of you even now 090327 ... unhinged the hopeful parts of me were still alive my whole life in front of me no regrets still convinced that a new place would bring me everything i was looking for no idea what i was getting into 090420 ... kerry i lived on the third floor of that gray and white building, the one behind the video store, do you know if it's still open? i'm afraid to look. that was the apartment where i found a wasp's nest in the living room window and the bathroom ceiling caved in sometime overnight. it was an old building. i did plenty of acid that year he and i had tomatoes and peppers and we put the cages upside down and felt like idiots when we realized. then we got aphids and i wrote a story about it. i could do a handstand then we had a new year's party and everyone had fun and the pictures are great, emily wore a gold sparkly dress and izzy and her boyfriend locked themselves in the bathroom i'm pretty sure on purpose, all our friends packed into one tiny apartment. that was the party when i finally admitted to myself that i didn't really love him, but somehow i wasn't scared the way i usually am about endings, and that made me wonder a little about myself, why i didn't feel the stabbing in my guts like you'd think i would; instead i was flinging the curtains wide open to let in all the light. 210802 ... unhinged i moved across the country on an amtrak train with my best friend to a new bioregion of rain and fire the past decade has been seismic 210802 ... epitome of incomprehensibility "The main point is that, on April 17, 2012, I hit a friend in the face with a wine glass," says me on 211004 (the_education_of_e_o_i). Should that read "wineglass" rather than "wine glass"? Je_ne_regrette_rien means je regrette tous. But anyway, I'm dreading the anniversary. Jesus is supposed to come back to life again, me to tutor online from 2-4, Lia to finally meet Shiloh, but I feel like curling up into a seed and being reborn without the dying part. 220415 what's it to you? who go blather from