our_story cr0wl hold on my love, unhinged... (i_dreamt_that_i_dreamt_30) ---it's apple picking time at robin_hill. 080914 ... unhinged no problem. my brain is preoccupied with my audtion next monday. i'm anticpating being a miserable failure. maybe i'll surprise myself. 080914 ... unhinged tomorrow, when all this is done for better or worse. i'm hoping for better. if anything, for all the people that are hoping for better for me. and as my pops always said 'it doesn't hurt to try' 080922 ... ff sometimes it does hurt to try because if you keep trying and never never get anywhere maybe it would feel better not to try the more you try and fail, the more bitter you become, what was once your passion will become something of the past, a fail, a mess that you will always feel disappointed about. if i was to do anything different i would be more arrogant and care less about how people feel but that would mean being fake wouldn't it. 080923 ... belly fire agreed...on all counts. 080923 ... unhinged i'm never disappointed with music. now actually trying to have a career playing it is another thing. that's why i'm also a teacher. and i agree with you. i think my dad was wrong. sometimes it does hurt to try. like why would i bother telling the person i'm in love with about my feelings when they tell me that i'm like their sister? i would rather live liking them and not knowing than to see the look on their face when they explicitly tell me they don't like me like that. 080923 ... unhinged sorry kev. my stolen internet connection has been very unreliable lately and i am just starting to get out of the funk doing horrible at that audition put me in. i'm not gonna make any promises but i'll try to add some soon. 081001 ... cr0wl i think you and i will always be writing our story...i just might jump in while i'm waitng for you...cause you know that dennis browne...he's a weasel, ol' snake in the grass... 081002 ... faerielord i impose i feel i lost it in the song i sang a tear i hate theater i love the stage i miss the him i miss the us 081017 ... faerielord the choice between fear and love disappointment and drive will and wanting attraction and asphyxiation pain and power fear and forgetting crying and caring believing and betrayal with my choice to fail 081019 ... once again I've been telling our storie. In places public and private. I've been writing the words to pin all that history on a page. And the thing is, that however much I write, it'll always be a little bit off. Until the day when you will write with me. I miss you. 081019 what's it to you? who go blather from