birdmad_draws_some_red_blanks birdmad my little homage to robin_hill 1. Today, i felt like ________________________ 2. ______________________ is the next thing i hope to accomplish within the next few weeks 3. Lately, i find myself ____________________________ 4. I find _______________ oddly entertaining 5. _____________________ scares me and i don't really know why. 040212 ... crOwl today i felt like it pays off to voice a formal complaint to the people in right places. we went to a lucy kaplansky concert at a very small club in the southside of pittsburgh and arrived 45 minutes early, hoping to get a table so we could eat before the show. um, not to be...every table was taken so we had to stand for the next three hours, while those who had seats were treated like royalty. nothing was done to the 5o or so of us that had to fend for ourselves, nearly getting into fistfights because we were blocking the views of others sitting at the bar. so, we sent an e-mail to the management the next day. he responded immediately, saying he recognized the problem and will work to remedy the situation for the future. and to appease us, he refunded our tickets, plus set us up with four tickets for the next show, dinner, and a guaranteed table. yeah, i felt pretty good about that. robin hill, the 'zine, is the next thing i hope to accomplish within the next few weeks. it's about half way done, at least the imagery is in place. once the writing is added and the completed work is fotocopied it will be ready for trade. lately, i find myself in places i have never looked before. i've never been one to live much in reality, but wouldn't you know, i 've been snooping around there these days and guess who i found? i find keeping a daily journal with a blue sharpie pen on the rough-cut walls of my horse barn oddly entertaining. wal-mart scares me and i don't really know why. maybe it's because i would rather shop in a little village where you know every vendor by name and they know you. where each place is a specialty shoppe, go here for this, go there for that. life isn't about saving time, it's about living time. 040213 ... nom 1. Today, i felt like crying and laughing. 2. living is the next thing i hope to accomplish within the next few weeks 3. Lately, i find myself repeating i find myself repeating myself. 4. I find the provincial legislature oddly entertaining. 5. the future scares me and i don't really know why. 040213 ... misstree 1. Today, i felt like sleeping in, just shutting off the alarms and ignoring the world, but if i am so much as a half hour late to work for three months, i will lose my job. so i just sleep there instead. 2. finding a new game and some appropriate playthings is the next thing i hope to accomplish within the next few weeks. the Playmate and i do what we can to scare up adventure in this corntown, but with more meat we could do so very much more damage. 3. Lately, i find myself getting very angry for no particular reason, but spending most of my time grinning and sated. 4. I find homoerotic rodeo midgets oddly entertaining. Skinless people aren't so odd in their entertainment, they're a bit more straightforward. 5. emotion scares me and i don't really know why. i've always lived like a poet, but lately any extremes of emotion aside from joy or entertainment, especially around other people, have made me attempt to shut down all emotional systems, which of course doesn't work. i've been terrified of feeling the full register recently. i don't understand it. 040213 ... slothisily 1. Today, i felt like my mom was losing herself and i was sad and slightly mad. 2. A steel suit of armor made especially for me is the next thing i hope to accomplish within the next few weeks 3. Lately, i find myself wondering about the creation of humans and how incredibly amazing our brains are compared to other life types. 4. I find trees and wind and weather in general oddly entertaining. 5. Relationships scare me and i don't really know why. 040228 ... cocoon 1. Today, i felt like studying. Which I really should have done, but I didn't because I figured I'm going to be doing enough of it in the coming weeks, and today is my last day of vacation anyway. 2. Studying for my exams is the next thing i hope to accomplish within the next few weeks. Which also includes cutting down the amount of time I spend on the computer. Which will probably be good for me. 3. Lately, i find myself going to bed earlier and earlier. I also find that I get bored much faster with things which used to keep me entertained for hours. 4. I find reading about other people's lives oddly entertaining. This could be because I myself dont have one. 5. The future scares me and i don't really know why. My immediate future holds lots and lots of exams, which scare me. Because I really really want to do well, and this is freaking me out because usually I can not do very much and still do well. But this time, because Im actually making the effort, I feel like it'll backfire. 040229 what's it to you? who go blather from