a_kiss Bespeckled Is worth shit. 080124 ... unhinged and a_real_hug would make me feel much better right about now 080125 ... jane the intention is there, unhinged... from me... if i could, i would. 080126 ... unhinged what kind of kiss we talking here? 080127 ... unhinged (sorry, giggly drunk and celibate for over six months now) ;-) 080127 ... Bespeckled Don't worry about it, unhinged, I blathe best while drunk (at least in my mind). My point with this post is simply to let myself finally know that a kiss, in and of itself, doesn't mean a damn thing. You can't on to any supposed meaning in a kiss, you can't hinge your hopes on a kiss. No matter how deep. No matter how real. No matter how unmatched it may have been. No matter how infinity seemed to settle on your lips. A kiss, in and of itself, is just a fucking kiss. 080127 ... unhinged if actions don't mean anything than what does? (i too have been in that place where i had to remind myself that a kiss is just a kiss) we got into a fight at work yesterday an arguement a debate whatever word fits because he was telling me YET ANOTHER story where he misunderstood what was going on between him and a girl but of course in his telling he is innocent it was a rather heated conversation weird to have on the floor at work but it proved to me again that words aren't the answer either me and him always have had trouble with words so if a kiss is just a kiss and words don't mean shit how the hell do humans ever reach understanding? (and maybe some combinations of us never do) 080128 ... p a kiss may just be a kiss, but it's still a kiss. by nature kisses are circumstantial, contextual, in constant. i can imagine a kiss that would make me melt, a kiss that would make me cry (in joy, and in pain), a kiss that would break my heart. i've been dreaming of kisses of late, while silently singing my song_of_impossible_things. 080128 ... Bespeckled i can imagine a kiss that would make me melt, a kiss that would make me cry (in joy, and in pain), a kiss that would break my heart. p, It's true. And the sad news is, I've had them all in the past month or so. I had that kiss that made me melt (multiple ones, even) I had he kiss that made me cry I even had the kiss that broke my heart, many of them, followed by sex that broke my heart too (See: you_had_breakup_sex_with_me_you_asshole), morning snuggles that broke my heart, and the finality of the door closing behind him as he walked out and broke my heart - that sound of the door closing was probably the most honest part of the whole experience. Try as we might to correlate them, kisses don't mean tenderness, sex doesn't mean love, holding each other's gaze in bed at night (while smiling) doesn't mean forever, and promises are just words. 080128 ... unhinged personally, i think that it's shit to do and say things you don't mean. but i know the heartbreaker type. i have a weakspot for them. and god do i know that sex does not mean love. unfortunately, i know that song like the back of my hand. that is exactly what has inspired my recent streak of celibacy. but i find that around the six month, my body and my hormones take over and lack of human contact (even if it is meaningless and/or lusty human contact) subsumes my brain. what i really want is hard to find, which i also personally think is shit. people don't want to cuddle anymore, cept for little kids. why does every physical interaction between consenting adults have to lead to sex for it to be worth it? there has only been one boy in a long time who let me suck his face off and didn't even try to take off my pants. i fantasize about him often. 080129 ... p i think, to answer your question, i'd have to say that it doesn't. 080129 ... unhinged i guess boys around here are assholes then all or nothing i just want a little middle of the way groping damn 080129 ... auburn promises are just words, but god how I love them. words, that is. 080130 ... leif can change you. 160208 what's it to you? who go blather from