caretaker perfectly_chaotic My wife is a zebra… always dizzy… post exertional malaise… me/cfs… bed-bound but we are youngish middle-agers… a marathon likely to last decades… rips me apart inside… a blend of love, resentment, anger, insomnia, loneliness… lack of affection… my caged animal heart aches but also overflows with gratitude for my son… this shit is hard and is aging me fast… 260615 ... i'm sorry let it all out 260625 what's it to you? who go blather from