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redtree do you think there is a difference in the memories of a dream compared to the memories of a real life experience? 051229
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tessa Dreaming is the realest my life has ever been 051229
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flux interesting.. what do you mean by "difference"? of course, the fact that you can differentiate between the two indicates that there is some sort of difference.. 051229
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redtree maybe the better question is...

are the memories of a dream and the memories of a real life experience the same thing?
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nom "All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream."
- poe, edgar allan
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slothisily sometimes they intermingle and i forget what was dream and what was real. 051231
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megan i cannot remember what was real or dreamed

i grew up thinking all these strange things happened to me as a child
and i would tell people
and they would believe me

until one day my mom heard me telling someone and said

megan
that never happened

i don't really understand it, i guess sometimes i like to create my own reality
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zeke see: signal_and_noise in blue 060112
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jane funny.
throughout my life my scariest dreams were in a sort of apocalyptic world, running around in alleys from the military, being part of a revolution that is failing. this is why i think children_of_men resonated with me so much. because it scared me, because i felt i had been there.
and the dream where i was in a holocaust, running through large boulders in a landfill from the soldiers, can't get away, watch my wife get burned alive in an oven, then get burned alive right after, then become a sort of apparition & float around, stuck in this hell of people getting burned alive on these conveyor belt ovens.
i try to explain to e about these dreams and why i have problems watching war movies, at least at night. the horrors are already there in my head. one night he convinced me to rent saving private ryan, i got about 1 minute into it & had to leave the room. i would like to see the movie but - i don't know.
before e, i had never shared with anyone these dreams, and i didn't want to have to convince him that they were real enough to me, that the memory of a dream is close enough to the memory in real life.
i still would like to be able to watch war movies, i mean i loved apocalypse now, i even loved dead presidents (not really a "war movie"). i think i'm just going to conquer my fear & watch saving private ryan. but i think i'll have to watch it by myself.
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flux that sounds exactly the way to conquer that fear. 071016
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raze dreams are always more difficult to remember than the things i've lived through with my eyes open. maybe it's the struggle to keep those scenes from slipping away that makes it feel so meaningful when i do manage to hold onto a bit of what's mine. those memories feel earned in a way my waking moments sometimes don't. they're not the same thing. but just because you dreamed it, that doesn't make it matter any less than if you'd said it out loud. 230720
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