disease Spellchecker No way could sexual tension be a disease. A condition perhaps, but not a disease. 020121 ... spoons a new disease "now I can take this, everything I know realize that i'm nothing I wanted to be I can never change anything i've done because it's the onlt thing I have left blame yourself again for what I didn't do never even knew it was coming from me it changed the way I felt, the worst is yet to come because I have gone too far now nobody changed my mind and it leads me to a new disease somebody let it die but it still becomes a new disease is this all worth what this has done to me watered down my senses and turned them on me fuck morality and everything I know if I didn't hate this than I couldn't cope impersonate myself for what I used to be denial is all that's left now nobody changed my mind and it leads me to a new disease somebody let it die but it still becomes a new disease seething in my head i'm suffering instead I can't remember why this meant so much to me doubt did I ever want this? it's all I could've been, it's all I would've been doubt did I ever want this? it's all i've ever been, it's all i'l ever be seething in my head i'm suffering instead I can't remember why this meant so much to me nobody changed my mind and it leads me to a new disease somebody let it die but it still becomes a new disease" spineshank 020421 ... depeche bird you know how hard it is for me to shake the disease that takes hold of my tongue in situations like these 020421 ... silentbob goodbye love 020422 ... jolie you're disease will not rub off on me I care not for your ambitions and disappointments. Stop feeling sorry for me. I hate that look on your face. 030514 ... tilt There's a lump on one of my testicles. I went to the doctor 3 times a year ago and he couldn't feel anything. It worries me. I really should get it checked out again. I suppose deep down I'm scared. I've been living the last few months convinced I'm dying. I'm very very busy with work at the moment. and stressed. I tell myself I don't have time to go the doctor (and I don't actually have a doctor at the moment). I can't tell my partner it's worrying me. She'd worry too much. I will get it checked out in april, once work has settled down. I didn't intend to blathe about this. It just surfaced when I came to red. The relative anonymity of tilt allows me to express some of the darker parts of my life. thanks. 090319 ... eatinstars tilt - if you are worried about it, you should get it checked out as soon as possible. 1. you will feel less stressed after it's over. 2. if it is something that needs treatment, the sooner it's treated the better. 090319 ... tilt I know. I will. Really I will. It's just that because of the recent(ish) move I don't know who my doctor is, or where they are. Perhaps next week I'll go to the nearest doc and try to sign up there. 090508 ... tilt also all clear. 100324 what's it to you? who go blather from