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warmthofrelease Is it the end of bad days forever?
Or is it just one good day?

I can rationalize in the misery. It's where I'm comfortable. I can tell myself easily that I will not always feel this way, that things will get better, and to truly believe it. But when happiness comes? I'm dumbstruck as the gambler who believes they're on a lucky streak.

Results_based_analysis never served me. Past results are not indicative of future results. Because we are in an open system, this life. Butterfly_effect and whatnot.

Don't ever make the mistake of thinking you're right. You always have to be willing to be wrong. Not to doubt yourself, this is something different. To accept the possibility that you could be wrong is to cover your bases. It is to remain open hearted, and very possibly it is to remain available for every opportunity. Including those you might not have seen.

My friends have come through for me
And I believe they will too in the future

I can work with this

When I said I don't care about anything
I was called on that bullshit
And I deserved to be

When I said I hate people
I was given a number
And was told to call tomorrow
As a birthday gift

When I said my middle name was none of their business
It wasn't misconstrued as hurtful
It was just funny

When the day started haunted by a dream
Where she found me
And asked me to be back in my life
So that I could just push her away
Even if I don't want to anymore
It's always what I'll decide to do

The day continued
With that ex-lover music
And missing her

When the day concluded
With a tangible promise and a vague hope
To burn out the rest of this lucky streak

I can't tell the difference between
Fear and love
Script and improv
Jaded and emerging
What we do for money and what we do to pass the time

But I can tell a friend when I see one. They don't expect to be entertained by me, they don't expect anything at all.

It's just a salvage job, putting life together
Raise what needs growing
Mend what needs healing
Take as much as you can carry
And don't ask for a second chance

Just know what you have
And take it in
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