time_goes_by guitar_freak Life is so short. The older I get the more I realize that I'm going wake up one day and be old. I feel as if I just got to college and another year is almost gone. It's been over a year since a ridiculous hookup started a beautiful relationship and yet, it could have been yesterday when I first met him...and in 20 days we will part. time is painful in so many ways. Graduation is in 3 weeks. My boyfriend and I will be splitting up even though we are on great terms. I am already mourning graduation day. Every night for the last year I've come home to him and felt comforted. Graduation seemed so far away. But now that day is fast approaching and my heart is breaking again. Not only will I have to leave him, but I leave so many of my friends- my family. It's easy to say that the seperation isn't forever, but the friends I have made here are from all over the country and world. Nothing will be the same. The only comfort I have is knowing that May 22 I will leave in tears with a broken heart and three days later I'll fly halfway around the world for nine weeks of crazy adventuring and eventually time will heal me. It is so strange that it is the shortness of time which is breaking my heart but that it is time that will eventually heal me again. I just wish I could be angry at him or blame him or get into a fight. It would be easier than loving him and having to leave him forever. 060501 ... Anthony It is the transient nature of this life. What was, has ended; what is, will end; what will be will eventually also find itself left behind. I miss you. The last time we spoke, it was a thirty-some dollar phone bill for that call alone ;) 060510 ... fido isn't it disquieting to know that THIS - tomorrow, manners, rocks, propriety, from the bottom to top of our society - is one of the infinity of ones spinning quietly apart among the tons of like varieties? so to say that our dramatics are profound as those socratics us as baked as those reefer addicts high and skyward bound! let us snip the ties that bind us, thus nipping the net that has us sniping and griping and wiping our asses all while only earthly bound! 060510 ... guitar_freak even though I know that transience is what life is made of, it is difficult for me to grasp the meaning of it all. not the meaning of life, but the meaning of what I do and why. 060511 ... guitar_freak It's a year since I wrote that post and nothing has changed at all. In three weeks I will be graduating and starting my 'adult' life. Terrifying and exhilirating all at the same time. 070501 ... nom time_goes_bye 070502 ... raze time_runs_away. slow down, you son of circularity. how can you be in march already when i've still got one foot stuck in february? 140301 what's it to you? who go blather from