cycle
bespeckled It seems this is a cycle that never ends.

love, then
hate, then
forget,
then love again ...

not love

but an unhealthy fascination,
("a temporary infatuation,"
said once the naive thing with the broken_heart and dreams of crushes that crumbled to dust under another's spiky high heel),
a damaging addiction,
an inappropriate interest and desire.

This cycle will break me down

to tears and vulnerability,

as those high heeled shoes tug you along by your tie.
020820
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( ... ) cycles can level off..

i've read, but do i understand?
020822
...
bespeckled and yet the cycle begins again,
and turns
and churns
in just one day.

You make me laugh,
you make me happy,
you make me optimisitic, then

you make me doubtful,
you make me angry,
you make me sad,
and regretful.


And once again, you make me
feel_so_foolish

But you'll lift me up again,
maybe

and fly me high.
And I'll be happy,
for awhile.

Until the high heeled shoes return.

And you'll be gone.


And I'll be dead.
020823
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Lime Rider try to stop the cycle at love. can it ever be stopped? brrr... my conservative mind shivers at the thought of cycles. And the progressive mind turns on and on. To a 'better' love? 021021
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amy new
peaking
fading
old
regurgitating
new
021215
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raze let_me_in
let_me_know
when_it's_over
let_it_go
130222
what's it to you?
who go
blather
from