there_was_this_urge cr0wl to risk the impossible, but somehow even if i failed and my body was black and blue, i would fall asleep knowing that i would fit safely into my dreams. 100106 ... unhinged to bolt to flee to get the hell out of dodge to find somewhere, some place, someone(s) that get IT the pangs of my heart that make me get out of bed in the morning compassionate living unplanned_living i was just having this conversation last night with a friend. i had some 'interesting' political conversations with my father. he is very conservative. at one point he told me i was too compassionate. 'do you know anything about my religion dad?' he looked up at me a little stunned. 'it's my RELIGION to be compassionate dad. if you knew anything about my religion, you wouldn't tell me i am being too compassionate.' he fumbled with his tongue, a little embarassed, didn't have much to say. 'it's okay dad. we just can't have this conversation. that's all. no more of this today.' 100106 ... rt how do you incorporate your religion into your life? do you have certain disciplines? 100106 ... unhinged in the past six months i've been doing a lot more incorporation than ever before. i started going to the meditation center as regularly as possible. haven't been in a couple weeks cause of the holiday, but i am looking forward to dragging my ass out of bed on saturday to see everyone. i've also been taking classes and attending benefits for the center. i go to a shambhala center where they have specific curricula so i have attended their level 1 training. they have a supplemental class for level 1 called 'meditation in everyday life' but i feel like i figured that out on my own. (not to sound conceited) i attended a benefit for the shambhala prison community here in milwaukee which is part of a national community. i took a class on the four noble truths. where ever and whenever i find the time to take a deep breath, especially when i feel overwhelmed, i am taking the time 'to be gentle' with myself as debbie would say. i try not to lie. (not so hard, i've never been very good at it and it was one of the cardinal sins of my childhood) i try not to gossip. i try not to be aggressive in any way. smile_at_strangers tonglen 100106 ... rt i admire this lifestyle. 100107 ... unhinged and flee you are and once again my heart is broke into a million pieces 100108 ... cr0wl i found a few of those pieces and i want to help glue them back together. 100110 ... unhinged i don't know if glue will hold them back together anymore 100110 ... cr0wl i've got some good glue. 100111 ... unhinged crazy_wisdom never seemed crazy to me 151129 what's it to you? who go blather from