redtree_innerviews_pilgrim redTree what are you living for? what would you die for? what would you kill for? 080505 ... pilgrim I Just Woke Up And Found Myself Stuck In This Flesh. I Am An Observer. I'll Die When It's Time. Certainly It Won't Be For Some Nationalistic Cause, But It Might Happen Trying To Save Someone Else From Harm. It's Not Really That Important What Shape The Threat Would Take. Fire, Flood, Violence, It Would Just Be A Knee Jerk Reaction, And I Would Be Gone. Hopefuly Spareing The Other That Fate. I Don't Know That I Would Kill Someone Else, Unless That Was The Only Way To Stop Them From Harming Another, My Wife Say. But If I Did It Would Only Be Bringing The Inevitabe To That Person Sooner Than Later. It Overtakes Us All Eventualy. 080506 ... pilgrim Tedium Puctuated By Bliss. My Steps Now Prescribed By Resposibility... I Miss The Days Of Waking Up, Preparing A Simple Meal Of Oats Almonds And Dried Fruit. Cleaning And Repacking My Gear. Then Waiting By An Onramp For Whatever Ride Would Come My Way. Nowhere I Had To Be. No Clocks. My Home On My Back. As People Passed By I Felt More A Part Of Everything, I Saw Myself In Everyone. My Best Days Were When I Let Go Of All Expectations, And Allowed Myself To Learn From Everyone. People Had To make A Split Second Decision To Let Me In To Their Lives Or Pass On By. I Had To Make A Similar Choice Of Anyone Who Offered. Reading "the vibe" Of People Was Part Of The Survival Skills One Honed, No Less Important Than Finding Shelter Or Making Fire. And It Was A Two Way Street. When I Was Anxious About Something, Impending Weather, Brush With Danger ect. I Emitted That Information In My Stance Or On My Face, And The Drivers Passing By Would Sense It. Needless To Say If I Didn't Get My Mind Right I Didn't Move From That Spot. But When I Relaxed, And Took In The Whole Scene, The Sky, The Flow Of Traffic, The Faces Flashing By.... It Would Invariably Deliver Me Up To Someone With Nuggets Of Wisdom To Share. Some Days It Was As If A Theme Would Be Reexamined So I Could Study It From Several Different Angles. Now I Know That I Can't Go Back, Or Leave My Wife For The Open Road, And I Love The Garden And House I Work To Hold On To, But As I Get Older, I Yearn For The Simpler Things. I Suppose This Is True Of Us All. And I Remember That It Wasn't All One Sweet Dream. I Was Young Enough To Expierience The Angst And Lonliness Of Being An Outsider, Unsure And Fumbling Through Social Interaction. In Fact It Was This Failing In Conversation And Friendship, That Put Me On The Road To Begin With. Knowing That I Would Have To Relate To Others If They Were My Means Of Transport. And In The End The Experiment Worked. And I Was Reshaped By The Adventure, Into What I Believe Is A Better And More Compasionate Version Of My Self. 080509 ... redTree you have been chosen as the world's new super hero, but you can possess only one power that you must select from the following two choices... 1. the ability to fly 2. the ability to be invisible which one do you choose? why? what will you call yourself? 080704 ... redTree what are the top five events of your life this year? 081209 what's it to you? who go blather from