little_things_remind_me_of_you solitary Like unmailed envelopes and couples kissing each other's cheeks and chins, Hershey's Pot of Gold (remember when you bought that for me for one of our special occasions?) gold rings and necklaces like hearts, boys with black hair (my heart is beating with desperate pain as I write - I fear your moving me to tears), sunlight passing softly over sheets, and your handwriting - your handwriting is what compels me to press your letter against my chest and wish that I was able to love you aloud. 021218 ... DammitJanet drain flies, star trek, leafs games, road runners near coke bottles, dust bunnies, chewed pens, 3, white socks, tags on curtains, grey arrows, the second pillow, pearl, cleatus, spiders, photo albums, pink monitor, the muppets, dirty futons, broken glass, carpet stains, john travolta, ice cream cake, the colour blue, exacto knives, blood on walls, paper towels, the word 'hole', misha's puke, stinky GARbage, bjork and no doubt and rancid and depeche mode and cake and tragically hip and of course bif, tercel's, pigeons, aberfoyle bottled water, captain caveman, janice, chicago! chicago!, re-e-e-lax and rubbermaids, corn for popping, stop kicking yourself, round clocks, chefs with spaghetti, socks on the floor, folding construction paper, pringles cans in plastic bags, good looking man on bus, painting, oranges in clear bags and bottled onions, chili, recirculated air, cracking ankles, dragging pants, white van shoes, shopping carts, yellow trees, collars, kitty pretty fitty smitty, candy capped, canadian tire's 'seepa, benene pata pay' announcements, hota hay, hot chocolate, swiss cheese crackers, shake n' bake, powdered mashed potatoes, fred durst, scrabble, sting, sue johansen, batteries, cleaning my room, yoga tapes, running for the phone, ice tea, halloween, ernie laughing, grover dancing, freecell, bubbles, bees in pickles, cabbage, fall on your knees, magnets, bellyfires. I miss you so much Sam. 031210 ... raze the smell of cigarettes mingling with perfume. the song i can still hear in my head if i reach for it, though i never learned who sang it. movies we watched together. malfunctioning smoke alarms. microwaved coffee. a half-empty stomach, and the threat of emotional larceny. 130729 ... unhinged four loko cans on the side of the road cribbage boards chess boards harry potter scenester glasses lrg tshirts boys in clothes four sizes too big a million things a million times a day 130729 ... unhinged . still every damn day 140805 what's it to you? who go blather from