i_searched_my_notes_for_the_word_done warmthofrelease seems a little cold for early spring and my mind is an old bag of leaves what have I done all the things a human being does and barely anything (April 2018) If I had known that I would be so pissed off and paralyzed for making the right decision then I might have done things differently. I guess that must mean it was better I didn't know. (July 2015) (Jeff Might've Said It Better But I'm Still Saying It) you're so hurtful in ways that you can't even see you don't understand yourself, how could you understand what you've done to me you_hear_what_you_want_to_hear but that won't stop you from questioning and I know once and for all you're not listening (June 2020) Not trying to punish you. I'm not trying to be spiteful or bitter. I might be dealing with a lot of hurt feelings but regardless I still know you haven't done anything wrong. I'm just a fucking mess right now ok? I'm really trying to gather myself but I don't have anything to give right now and I don't feel like I can open up to you right now. It doesn't mean I don't fucking care. have_mercy (October 2019) You see how you're really hiding, in all that light? You see what they've done to you? (November 2015) million dollar smile 2 cent face I got the starting gun wanna race? world's not in my hands it's in my pocket burning like tickets for tonight I got attention I got leverage I don't need opposition no good bad or any intention I'm seeing where this takes me I'm not barking I will watchdog and listen you have to answer one question are you with me I don't care about your love or your hate no dividing lines no debate no peers no rivals come from a whole other world and I'm dead on arrival it's over before it begun no game no culture no expectation no one compares to anyone I am not what makes it structurally sound I_am_the_plank_that_falls_away_to_make_the_floor_cave you didn't see me because I was something else's ceiling what's never lost is never found never know what hit em, my will be done (January 2019) I_give_you_my_keys_and_my_hands for what we saw me become fear and restitution are excuses I'm ashamed for what is undone (March 2015) could've done better otherwise_perfect (June 2024) 250917 what's it to you? who go blather from